work started :/

5 days into work.

well... i still am as clueless but not that i din't learn anything. at least i read a few of the stuff which i am supposed to. There's a lot more but all in due time i guess... :)

i'm faced with  lot of things i have to settle, but i have no means / instrument to do so. so as the same for knowledge.

"don't be overwhelmed. you're still new." said my CO.

i hope i am up to the job. I hope he made the right choice to choose me. I hope i have the potential in me to be good. I hope......

i am overwhelmed by my helplessness. by the fact that i have no predecessor to teach me. but i will remain as positive as i can.

i believe....

i can do it.

just one thing..... at a time. :)

rejoining the workforce...

the day has finally arrived. the night before i start work. the anxiety that surfaces when i step into an unfamiliar environment.

tonight is the where i will check and set multiple alarms just so i wake up in time for work. as per usual, i set in place much lead time for my travel to work and here, i will time my journey.

i am hereby going back to a 8-5 job since Heraeus and i am indeed thankful.

i have landed myself a job in a function which is of my preference and for that, i am thankful.

i will be paid well, much better than my previous jobs and for that, i am grateful.

my boss seems nice. i am comforted in a way.

to be frank, i pray that i will be comfortable on the job. cause butterflies are creating havoc in my tummy right now.

as i am thankful for all the grace showered on me, i pray, that You will help me rise up and excel in what i will do.



In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit,

Amen

just some thoughts

hmmm... i'm frustrated. impatient to be exact.

i have been waiting for my official job offer to come but to no avail. what the shit is happening to my prospective employer?

i've braced myself to work for so long now, on totally unfamiliar grounds and environment and yet i can't start yet! THIS IS WRONG.

although i have all these freedom now, i have too many uncertainties too.

list:

unconfirmed:

job offer

masters

drums

sax

end of year trip

sign class

confirmed:

jap

korean

so many things to do. yet i'm being stalled at this stage.

been smitten these few weeks. however,

ONCE BITTEN, TWICE SHY.... :/

 (lost)