Thoughts...

I got quite emo a while ago after my driving lesson on thurs. Will come to it later.

Here's a pic with xinyu who's in Hongkong now for SEP. Good life. Going on hols to Japan after coming back to singapore for a short while before going back to hongkong for flight to japan.

Yeah yeah... I know i'm good looking. BUAHAHAA. Went to marinah's place for her to do her experiment on marinah's little sis. *evils*

Well, that above was quite long ago.

Back on track, i lost my spectacle case on tues. Must have left it in LT25 after my bio lect. Sianz diao. Had to use my old army specs de case which looks so dotx......

I'm starting to love squash training more and more le. Even more than i last loved it. Why? Cause i started playing doubles in training with the squash ppl. Its very fun though my team lost most of the time. But we had very good fights.

Here comes the emo part.

WARNING!!! Reading this might make you emo too. Haa!

Its been quite some time sinc i went to my maternal grandparents place. Reason? They're enjoying in paradise already. This is not very sad though. The thing is, i'm haven't really seen my maternal grandfather, course he died before i can even remember him. Respect him, as he's a very good dad from the words of my mum. My maternal grandmother... Passed away few years ago. Well... It seems that for such a long time since the funeral, i have forgotten everything about her, shut out of my memories.

Just happened to end my driving lesson in hougang area blk 708. Normally, i would have been around compasspoint but well, since i drove to ubi to book my test date, the uncle made me drive to hougang from sengkang. Its really fun. Enjoyed the ride, though i drove.

Yep... So i happened to be around the the neighbourhood. I decided to go to my granny's la. As i expected, my 2 uncles are at home doing nothing. They are the eldest and the 2nd eldest. Yea... They are both not working. My youngest uncle also lives there and he has his famiy la... He's working... Same as my third uncle.

Yea. It gives my this heartache feeling you know. To see the 2 of my uncle living day by day in the house doing absolutely nothing. Wake up, eat, watch tv and den slp. Dreadful routine. Questions? Yea they're very uneducated. I can't even remember when was the last time they've worked. Thus, this also means that they do NOT have a chance of survival without us. Especially my 2nd uncle, he's been through i serious trauma that since then, he's totally shut himself from the world, except from us of course. My eldest uncle is a bit slow i guess. Don't know if thats the word to describe it. Gives people the feeling that if you want to cheat anyone, he's the man. So he too, is sheltered. Don't get me wrong, my eldest uncle is normal. He talks and communicate like you and me.

Ok.. Thats the background information of my maternal family...

He was a bit exhilarated when i appeared at the door. He opened it happily and asked if my mum and dad was behind. Sadly, i disappointed him. I was alone. I guessed and somehow knew that he should be running low on his allowance for daily food. When i saw them, my 2nd uncle was like so thin that i have no comments totally.

Opening my wallet, i see that i have $26 bucks. At that moment, i SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY thought that it'll be so nice to give them money to get on with life till my parents visit again.

THIS IS THE PART I SERIOUSLY REGRETTED.

$26. I guessed $6 is enough for me for the day. So i had $20 to spare and part with.

I DID NOT.

Reason? Seriously i don't know how to hand them the money. Imagine your nephew came to visit and gave you allowance. Maybe its ok la. But i just felt not right at all but i regretted it. I haven't really regretted a decision made for so long but this is the first and so long. I promise the next time i get a chance to visit, i'll be sure to do my part as family.

Well... As i left for school, i took a few pictures...

The outside of my granny's place... Where my cousins and me used to water plants.

This is the corridor where we USED TO played paper soccer and all...

How good if some things doesn't change....

A bleeding heart???

Oh well. Its a thurs morning and what am i doing here? BLOGGING.

Updates. I think i improved a bit in squash as in i coud get balls i couldn't in the past. But still i ain't that good enough. Well, what can i do??? Play more, train more. Focus?? My back hand strokes. It realy sucked. Oh yea. Really had fun playing doubles match in training yesterday. Paired with Damien, Ho Man, Navin. Damn funny. Of course i did stuns which caused everyone to laugh rolling on the floor. An example? Hitting my racquet on the side wall while doing serve.

School? As usual.. Being lost in lectures and having to do some serious catching up. Finally i think i know how to do cables le. But its only on concentrated load. Gotta revise distributed load on cables too. Maths is still the same, knowing how to do but just can't explain?? So i think i don't have a talent for teaching ba. Haiz, my 3rd bio lab got 3 out of 6. Wrote too little it seems. Nevertheless, doing well in bio is still what i hope for. Cause its one of the few subjects i liked.

What have i been doing?

I finished Naruto and Heros up to date. Big feat in one week. Nevertheless, its worth it cause these are really good shows. Not forgetting Bleach and Prince of tennis.

I'm still waiting for my Samurai X order. Left with 6 books to completion and its NOT coming yet!

Oh well.. Driving lesson later in sengkang. 11-1.

See ya.

Nice heart shaped donut from donut factory. Strawberry filling inside.