chinese new year...

This year, CNY is a bit different. My aunt had given birth and through some chinese customs, we can go see her just yet and thus, no visit to my grandpa's house. So its just my grandpa's elder brother for today...

Hmmm... Wonder what's for tml...

Oh ya.. Maybe going to kit's house tml night... Not confirmed yet though.

Played Wii for the first time on the visit... Wii bowling... hahaha.. quite interesting... but guess its not really my cup of tea.. All in all, visit was normal with some small talks and Wii session... Surprising though, no one asked about gf this year! Hahaha... oh well... saves all my explaining to do..

Argh crap... i think i am getting fat though.. and i haven book my RT.. GGTTM... ok.. time for poker on my phone again.. ahhaha

My CNY shopping spree...

This is the CNY which i spent the most.. Gosh... Really GGTTM man... Lets see... What did i buy?

1. Top man white "cardigan" type top.. (haha... i think i need a undershirt for it too)
2. Levi's 501 jeans.. (Typical)
3. Ralph Lauren Polo.. (What was i thinking?)

Yup... And that sums up all my budget for the year 2010 for clothes shopping.

Anyway... Work is getting bit crazy SOON... The german is back... Even sadded.. The only thing that is good in the company is Shimon(my buddy) and the perm staffs(chee wei, effie, callien bla bla bla).

Ok i'm getting lazy... I am glad my valentine's day card got to Louelle! Surprisingly fast. =D

Till the next time i update!

爱的就是你！

Since i have no outlet to vent out my emo feelings, and i really, do not advocate emoing on public, i will do so here... So you people who read my blog, meaning you care can know whats in my mind though i do my best to be an optimistic man. =)

Yup... The title has been my song for the past week and maybe it speaks of the one and only thing i will say to the special someone whom i thought would last me till forever and that includes in heaven cos we're christians. At least i think i am... =) Hmmm... Actually, my life for the past 2 months has been filled with a longing that maybe there was a chance that we may get back together and that i will not care even if she has not much time for me for now! But i guess, my greatest hopes were pinned on my birthday which went past in a breeze and it btw was quite happening this year though.. A birthday wish from you which came near the end of the day... From a longing hope to see you, till a wish that you had never remembered me at all, it all happened in a day.

Damned... I told myself to bear no hopes though. I guess i failed.

Anyway, ya... This is the worse i have felt in my 23 years of birthday.

Dear friends, i did something stupid. I actually sms-ed her saying that we shouldn't communicate anymore till i can get over her. Out of 100%, when 95% of me tells me that i should just let her go and just stop hoping for a chance that we'll be back together, a 5% still hopes otherwise. So i decided to do myself a favour and kill that 5% of me. Maybe dreams are bad and hopes brings you down more than it give you joy.... Being a realist... Still, i thought it was stupid after i sent that.. But then, what else can i do to recover faster if i dun kill my own hopes.

The bad thing: I haven't got a clue of how she feels about me... But from fb, i guess she's doing very well w/o me and maybe she never loved me anymore after we broke up. Haa..

Argh!!!! My friend whom i met last saturday had to ask whether i would get back with her if she wanted to... Of cos i said yes... But how many birthday wishes will it take? Anyway... I guess this topic was touchy even to myself to communicate on my own blog cos i am seriously at a lost. So i never mentioned it.

I do hate her for doing this. (had to get it off my chest)

I LOVED being so committed to a girl that i can marry her.. I LOVED her to witness my life, and i'll promise that i'll not let every tiny bit of her life go unnoticed. To hold her hand, and tell her that for every moment of her life, i will be there to support her. This tiny dash in between my birth year and my death year, i would like her to be the witness of that tiny dash. That's really all. =D And thats why i think i am really like Ross..

Ok.. Emo-ed enough.

Next... My birthday!!!!

Ok... Firstly i have to thank everyone who wished me in fb and in sms... =D Thats really a lot of you and i'm kinda lazy to name everyone out now... =D

I had a really birthday dinner with you guys, Kinloong(planner), wenhao, cheehong, clarence, WENDY(Really appreciate you coming and sorry that you're the only girl), khai, george, leo(surprised to see), eugene, ben! Waraku was great! And The cake... Awwwwww! I really din expect... Although i thought maybe there's something when you(kinloong) walked out halfway but yea! I'VE A CAKE!!! HAHAHA! Thats the best present.. To be with you guys! Eddi and louelle, though you 2 pangseh-ed, i'll pardon the 2 of you.

Louelle.... That was quite cute of you to msg me on the 29th 0000hrs in SA... Though its already 6am in singapore, and i woke up from your sms, really really nice to recieve your msg! What a way to start my day. =D

Eddi... You cock... Using US time when you're late in Singapore! Nvm.. Shall pardon you! Hahaha...

Hmmm.. Xinyu thanks for the lunch! =D Soup spoon was great(cos its my idea) and i really had a good time irritating you though its only for a while. Paiseh i was a bit emo half way when you touched the subject that ought not to be touched. But yea! I still enjoyed. You're still first to wish me. =D

Grace... Same time as xinyu but i saw your sms second. LOL... Really appreciate you meeting me on friday for dinner and saturday for TOOTH FAIRY which after that became jalan jalan in causeway till 9+. Hahaha.. Amazing that we can meet at 4 and shop till 9. Hahaha... I think i needa go into hiding before all your stalkers come and take me out. Oh!! Grace... Thanks for the mini choc(dun feel bad about buying choc) cake, card pouch and the bookmark you made for me! Thats really a lot. =D

Thanks to my colleagues from Heraeus who treated to lunch on friday too! Chicken was good and you are all really nice people and it is only my fortune to have you all as my colleagues in IA. (except for the certain german). Thanks sylvia for the ext hdd... I know you wont be reading this but she shouldn't have bought something so expensive. But i loved the gift.

Woo Shimon.. Dude... Though i haven get the earphones, Thanks man! Hahaha.... It'll be another day of grinding, polishing and observing tml... How good if our targets/sampes were girls and not wires... Haha...

For this birthday,

I realised that you do not need to be a girl for your friend to get you a birthday cake. Haha... I always thought surprise birthday cakes a more for girls. But am thrilled to have one. =D

I love my friend and they are all that i have and will always have till i die. Besides God being constant, i guess our friendship will always be a constant GREAT cos our foundations are built on a solid rock just like God is.

I realised that even though it hurts a lot if i fail, i still love the idea of being that committed to a girl.

Yup...

I'm growing in knowledge of His word, but i lack the discipline to keep them. Goodness... I sure need some help... Anyway... Really pray it to be on easter sunday!

Ok... till next time.... ciaos!